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Or all the haters out there

desareehelene — Wed, 18 Jan 2012 23:16:26 +0000

In the last 4 years I have grown more then anyone I know … I am completely different who I was in high school. I was a lost scared little girl back home.. I was being bullied at school then I come home I had to be bullied at home. I had to grow up faster then anyone I knew at that time… I have established a life for myself in the last 4 years. I have gained so many friends that are exactly like me.. Insane and weird but I wouldn’t trade them or anything! I met the man I couldn’t imagine my life without . I have gotten into my dream school because I worked my butt off! I fell in love with my job and I love my bosses and co workers ! So NOONE can tell me I haven’t changed since those days! I became the woman I wanted to be!

Happy Safe and Healthy New Year ❤

desareehelene — Sat, 31 Dec 2011 20:13:20 +0000

I am wishing you all my fellow bloggers out there a happy,healthy and safe new year. I am very excited for this years festivities because Josh and I are keeping it classy with a nice dinner and staying in! I know it’s lame but compared to last year I will take it ❤

Last year was exciting though. We all packed up and went to a rave called Together As One. Things have changed since then. People have grown apart and things have fell together. It will always be a great memory for me but honestly it’s just another chapter in my life ❤

Whatever your resolutions are this year, stick to them. Life is too short to dwell on the past. Live in the present and enjoy the future

Xoxoxo

Miss Desaree Helene Soto aka the queen

A year of love.change.hardship.and a future to come<3

desareehelene — Fri, 30 Dec 2011 22:03:05 +0000

Every year since I graduated from high school I reflect in writing how I’ve changed over a course of a year . This by far was my biggest growing year because I had a lot if help along the way. I’ve been struggling for 3 years … Trying to find my place in this world lost lonely and unsure of myself. I was a party girl trapped in an adult woman’s body. I was screaming for attention so much that I lost my way a lot. We all lose our way but mine was going down a destructive path.

In came a light at the end of a tunnel Joshua Alexander Lutz . Though I may say in the past I rushed things with guys because I wanted that closeness that I was longing for since I was a little girl. I didn’t get until Josh came in my life. It’s corny and cliche to say that a man can do that for you but when you seen enough of bad stuff like I have, you have to express that way. In the beginning of our relationship I had my guard up ( kinda still do ). I wasn’t used to bing treated like I mattered on this world, like I belonged. I am a weirdo I know that… I think that’s why Josh and I have worked out, we both are freaks that longed for each other. Over this year though I had to slowly ( and I mean slowly) start trusting Josh more and more. It was hard for me but I know on this day it was for the best.

I don’t have many friends in my life, yeah I am super friendly and make a ton of friends, but you have to be extremely special to be close to me. You have to show me trust and honesty in order to gain my friendship. Why? Cause I am the type of person when your let into my world .. You are there do the long haul. Yet if you do something that can jeopardize my life that when you got to go. I am sorry but I don’t deal with being walked over. I be been dealing with it for 22 years… ! I learned this year that even your closet people can try to destroy you and your life. I won’t go in detail but I learned I can only trust a few people AND myself!

This year I worked ten times a hard as ever! I always have been a hard worker but not in school! I always dreamed of pursuing a career in acting. I am an actress that who I am ! Fit me because I am the biggest drama queen alive! I shy away from anything that deals with math or science so brig a doctor was out of the question! I decided that after working so hard , I’d apply to Cal Berkeley . Yeah I’ll admit I had decent grades but not good enough for Berkeley ! But somehow I got in!

So as 2012 approaches I am going into the new year with faith that another yer will be ten times as amazing ! That josh and I will get stronger day by day.. That I’ll keep working towards my dreams and goals .. And to remember to smile through all of it <3

insight to the real Desaree Helene Soto

desareehelene — Wed, 16 Nov 2011 08:33:09 +0000

I’m pretty easy to get to know.. I don’t really have layers. But not too many people get to know the real me. But here is the low down

I was born to a young mother. She has always scarf iced for me and that made me driven not to have sex or do drugs when I was a teen.

My middle name is from my grandmother on my moms side. My momma loved my grandmas middle name she gave it to as mine.

I am a child of former abuse. It has taken me a long way to speak about it. I will fully admit that I have issues from it. But I am a strong person because of it.

My dream has always been to become an actress. I have always been a performer and have loved it.

When I was 19.. I started raving.. I really have never been apart of a whole different world… Ever since I’ve been hooked. I love the music and the people.

I an the only girl in my family. I have 4 brothers and I hate being the only girl but that’s means I am spoiled

I have always dreamed and wished for a man to sweep me off my feet. Earlier this year.. Such thing happened. If Josh and I never met then I think my life would have been different.

I love to laugh. I enjoy the simple things in life such as laughter .

(photo:#1. Me when I was a junior in high school.. The sweet and innocent me.

Photo:#2. Me as of today. A strong, beautiful woman.)